New Mexico, The Land of Enchantment, USA
Born and raised in Central Kansas in the 1970s, I eventually found my way to the Southwest in 1998.
Never really good at much of anything athletic, and seemingly sick all of the time, I discovered I had a way with words. I guess when one stutters and stammers and is made fun of by so-called “friends” one tends to really just do nothing but to keep to oneself.
Diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue and Chronic Pain in the mid-90′s, I found myself being able to do less and less over these years. I do try not to let it get me down, but sometimes it just gets in the way. So, here I am, trying to make my way in the world.
I am writing this because it’s easier for me to write than it is to talk about directly; not just because there is alot to discuss and it is better to write about, but also because I suffer with a speech impediment. Now, to begin.
Well, I don’t know where to begin, but saying that all my life I’ve been told that I would never amount to anything, that I’m slow, that I’m not good at anything, and even that I’m “retarded” seems a good way to start.
Over the years, I’ve grown a thick skin and have bitten by tongue; it takes a very strong will and even stronger character to brush off such comments. I have striven my entire life to prove such people wrong, and most times I have failed. I did manage, however, to graduate from college with an Associate’s degree, something my teachers early on told me I would never acheive!
In approximately 1996 or 1997 I was diagnosed by my regular physician with a condition called Fibromyalgia Syndrome. A specialist couldn’t confirm this is what I had, but he couldn’t say that it’s not what I had, either. Then, I moved to New Mexico to work on my Bachelor’s degree, and doctors here haven’t come to a concensus as to what ails me; could be excessive cortisol, could be adrenal gland or thyroid problems. Regardless of what the condition is, it is very painful. The only way I can describe it is like this: Take the worst ache you can remember and imagine having it pretty much constantly, only instead of being isolated, it is in every joint and muscle.