I am someone who very strongly believes that if you are not living your life on the very edge then you are not living your life at all. A life lived in the secure cradle of monotony is simply unacceptable to me. What are we afraid of, after all? Failure? If failing is what scares us then man would foray into no such venture that betrays even an inkling of failing. But here’s the paradox, if we live so cautiously so as to never fail at anything at all then what sort of a life have we lived. We haven’t lived at all, in which case we fail by default.
No, the deepest darkest fear of our human existence is boredom. The solution is simple, find what you love and do what you love. And until then, keep looking. I find the words of one of the greatest physicists of our times, Richard Feynman, more prophetic in this regard, “Fall in love with some activity, and do it! Nobody ever figures out what life is all about, and it doesn’t matter. Explore the world. Nearly everything is really interesting if you go into it deeply enough. Work as hard and as much as you want to on the things you like to do the best. Don’t think about what you want to be, but what you want to do.” It’s like what my friend tells me, do what you want to do because you love doing it not because you are ambitious. Ambition will take you far but love will take you further. When you are tired, depleted, down to your last ounce of strength, one second away from drifting off into oblivion, what makes you take that one more step, one more inch closer to your destination is love. I have always believed that the first thing to get right when embarking on any endeavour is the reason you want to do it. The rest will fall in place automatically. If you are passionate about it then come what may you will find a way to weather any storm.
What do I love doing? Aristotle famously said there were two basic types of joy: hedonia, or that keg-standing, Netflix binge-watching, Nutella-from-the-jar selfish kind of pleasure, and eudaimonia, or the pleasure that comes from helping others, doing meaningful work, and otherwise leading a life well-lived. I happen to be eudaimonic. I want my life to mean something, to be worth something, to someone.