Casey Alexandra Callahan

Shite. My biography?? Um well. let's see....I'm 35 years old, I am human (at least I think I am) but who know's I could be a MOON GODDESS or Medusa for that matter( I have been known to be called both, lol) I am for lack of a better word, I am one who is able to give life. I have been a mother as long as I can remember becoming pregnant at age 18, my first daughter, Lainie was born 4 months after I turned the ripe old age of 19 , not even a full year since I had left high school and I was responsible for a human life - her heart was in my hands. And still is, Holy Shite! I can't speak for other's but for me, man - that is just Jarring and honestly. I am certainly not capable of such a profound and powerful role as goddess - creator. lifegiver, teacher, Leader. Lover..... Sure, that's what most people would have said about me, including myself along my journey, That's the beauty of self doubt. It bury's your soul, Until one day, the doubting leads to searching and that search leads to lots of dark corners and the dark corners are - fucking dark corners! Who wants to freaking sse what's is hiding there? Um, I don't - nope, Especcially if whatever I find is apart of me - that part is a part of me is like the casey at age 11 ( i'm mean I'm not gonna lie - I find it hard to believe that was me- I thought I looked alot better than I did.. But I had no boobs and my eyebrows were blond barely there and it was just too obvious that I was just a 4 th grader in elem school trying to dance to debbie gibson,and making friends but I really love watching reading rainbow after school and I still got my ass kicked by those 2 black girls who jumped me in the 3rd grade at garfield elem school in North beach in San francisco, - charm necklass with my name spelled out in the center - Why they wanted a necklace that beyond my comprehension. aid Casey who wanted my necklace - no. it wasn't a gold chain - it was a teddy bear who really thought boys didn't like me because they were all gay, Omg - i'm just kidding - had to say it. No, because

It's called Self Confidence. At it's only achieved when you have Fucked up so many times and the world has finally gotten tired of your child like ways - that were once so charming and could get out of everything - suddently were disturbing and reckless...