Gordon Benson

I walked out on my beautiful sweet wife 2 yrs ago leaving behind a wonderful 30 yr marriage. I was totally being selfish and thougt of no one. I let my poor wife alone, lonely, in pain and suffering something terribly. I ran lose like a bird and would have sex with any bitch that would spread her legs. Then I got involved with a bitchy street scum bitch. This turely insulted my lovely wife that I would even be around such a piece of trash. We would never have allowed a person like she was in our lives. That I didn't even have the decency to pick a lady for God's sake. The affair has ended but not without total destruction of my life. I have asked my wife to take me back and I told her I could never tell her how sorry I am that I put her through so much pain and destorying our marriage and her even if I told her every day how sorry I am it wouldn't be enough. I want to try and bring some kind of joy back into my wife's life. I'll never be able to heal her back to her old self. That I destoryed along with our marriage. Nothing will be the same ever. Our marriage is over as we once knew it. She'll never will have a love affair with me again. And she loved me with all of herself and gave me everything she could of herself. No man could have had a better wife than I had. She was perfect and then some. My marriage was so awesome. We loved each other deeply and passionately for over 30 yrs. Now I have to try and live with myself. She's made it clear that there are no promises and we will have to see how things are after we go to counseling. That I'm the one who is going to have to work really hard at this for us to remain together. I am going to pour every single bit of myself into this healing process for both of us.

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