Being a Christian isn't all lollipops, happy, happy, joy, joy.. I have struggled and suffered, and rebelled, run away, and run into, finally the arms of my Heavenly Father...

I am thankful for a husband that Loves my heart & that loves me w/unconditional love.

All my life I have placed my self esteem in My talents, My Career, the approval of others, being a perfectionist & My Looks. I am so very thankful this day, that JESUS has revealed to me my idols & shown me how they have all failed me.

I am so very thankful I serve The LORD of LORDS and the KING of KINGS ~ JESUS, it is IN HIM, that my security, self esteem resides in. All my idols have failed me... As they always will, if I place my worth in them again...I'm not the same, He has, and IS & Will continue to change me. Also, He has revealed a root of bitterness from all of this. Start ripping it out LORD. More of you Less of me! I am humbled... I am also, not ashamed. Think me weird, think me strange, think me what you may.. Or as a long time friend told me recently, I'm way out there.

I am what I am, Honest and transparent. No apologizing here. ♥

I am before Jesus & I am learning, growing, repenting, struggling, confessing, and Jesus is equipping me for now.

I feel that I am misunderstood & that my passions and convictions tend to keep people at a distance. I do not mean to push others away. i have very strong & Deep convictions, that I pray that Jesus refine them in Love, HIS Love...

I Pray that it is Jesus that others see in me. I have lived with so much shame for so very long that, while Jesus heals me, I share and what I learn I want to shout from the roof tops. I pray that Jesus use me to share my story with those who have gone through the same things I suffered through. I want my Life to count, I want to make a mark on this world for the better to lift high Jesus, and to point others to Jesus and show them through the Holy Spirit, how real Jesus is...

To Be Continued........ No Doubt..... ♥ Thank You Jesus!