Exposed to so many risks factor, maybe my gene is mutating for the neoplasia, maybe HIV is near around me , maybe I am making my own antibody against my own cell ,now I am alive within stronghold of my God . So I just wanna be myself ,chasing my own dream living a happy life ,good or bad just accept it! By the way ,I am Chinese medical student ｉwanna a string connect all my knowings ,please god help me