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Thirty years ago I met a man who believed in himself and this land. Good thing, in 2012 Jan, I lost 20 pounds. No worries, I was a little fat. But, the same weight lost happened Feb. I had no energy, stayed in bed and...

Off to the doctor which morphed to "doctors". Not a one knew what I was suffering from. Finally my husband who felt we had enough money to be self-insured, pulled the doctors to the side and explained to them in words he knew and was sure they'd understanding. "I have no more money to finance your illustrious lifestyle, if something should befall my wife and I find you are. Probably at fault, I won't hold myself accountable for what the other dimensions deep within my psyche' allow to befall you."

I knew there was a reason I married this man. In no time a meeting where the doctor who conveyed I had contracted Ceiliac Disease. A correction immediately. Today, I'm still standing but. No thanks to those girls perpretrating as grown women who had the audacity suggesting to my husband to "kick me to the curb" because... I was sick, no longer of any benefit to him or his life.

Today I'm back in my home state as I didn't intend to die in any remote territory within America. Returning to The Bay Area in No. Cali but. Gentrification makes for a miserable environment to live in and. Minus finances we as a FAM once enjoyed, the immediate stay wasn't a reality. Yeap, my medical bills exceeded our bank account the savings hidden in my shoe boxes & equity secured after the sales of my home. So yes, we say we are in transition structually but. It's just a gentrified way of declaring. I won't even inject the term here. It would be like giving in to a living condition we know we can change.

Most of what life offers can be perceived in 1 of 2 ways. A test to see if you can muster from your best or. A chance to... As my husband says "Lay it down and bow down".

My husband, some say he's a Rogue. By standard definitions he may be. But, he's not typical nor does anything standard apply to us. Which is to say; like The Great Phoenix, a resurrication will happen. What will arise, will... Be consicous, psychologically adaptable and socially flexible making the next act of our lives, that much more exciting.