Unknown Girl

“sometimes music is the only thing
that gets your mind off everything else.”

I’m not average in any meaning of the word. My boundaries are made up of limitless lines. My simplest ally often becomes my enemy when misconstrued thoughts take over. My defenses are what keep me sane, vulnerability being my worst fear in this world. Simple things become tiring, such as writing this. For once I am willing to show that I can string words together without being “laid back” all the time. I enjoy my personality, but not my own company. I can’t fully trust anyone, I can’t explain why, but I have a hard time believing that people are telling the whole truth or being them selves 110% of the time. i love my mom, shes by far my favorite family member along with my older sister, I tend to feel sorry for people and I have only recently learned how to say no without feeling bad.

There are some people I love a lot more then others… I wouldn’t call these people lucky. I’m a bit hard to work out, i doubt there will be anyone who can truly understand me.I believe that love at first sight is shallow. I wish I believed in Santa and the tooth fairy. I miss being a small child and I no that I still am a child but I love it. I’m scared of growing up. I want to be forever young. I hate school with a passion. Every second I am in that school I feel like banging my head on a brick wall or ripping someones head off. Argh. I’m scared that someone I’ve never met is going to hurt me majorly. I often find ways to idolize people, even ones I hate. I find their charm. Although I may not know you, I love you. ♥..