I paint to destress, to transfer my feelings onto a canvas. Paintings are mysterious unlike journaling, where one could easily read someone's feelings. Someone can look at my paintings and not know the meaning behind it, no matter how hard one may look, you will never know the full meaning of a painting. I hold that power of telling or keeping in the meanings of my paintings. I paint what I want, I paint what I feel, I create my own world. I love holding that power, my obsession is being in control. Anxiety is not easy, holding everything in is not easy. Every day I overthink, I overanalyze, thinking it will help me reach perfection. Paintings do not have to be perfect, just as the doctor and my parents tell me about my everyday actions. It is okay to not make a one-hundred on a test, it is okay to let out your feelings. Of course, none of that changes my mentality, but at least I have a world to escape to. Anxiety lives in my mind rent-free, when in class, when I'm happy, it's always there. Painting is my happiness, it is my sadness, it is my anxiety painted on a canvas.