Alex Lenkei

I’m the type of person that is quiet. I am a book lover through and through. I love them more than anything. I will often put your wants or needs before my own. I am a fiercely private person and don’t let people ever truly know me. I have this wall and, honestly, you won’t ever get to see who I am behind it. I would describe myself as emotionally unattached. I make a point in not being strongly connected to anyone not because I don’t like them but because it prevents me from getting hurt. As far as I know, this is not a defense mechanism for being hurt in the past. I have a mask that I put on each day and it is all you will see of me. There is a certain freedom that comes from being alone and I thrive in it. I don’t like people commenting on how I might “sit alone” or “don’t talk a lot” because there is nothing wrong with that. I tend to overanalyze and overthink everything and at times I can be bluntly honest, but I never mean to hurt your feelings. I’m nearly never comfortable in social situations or leadership positions. I wish I could look at a person and understand who they are. I wish I could understand the pain that they have gone through and the obstacles that they have overcome. I want to know their deepest fears and outstanding accomplishments. I want to know their greatest joy and most depressing moments. I want to know how they see life and how they navigate through it. I want to know the world that they inhabit. I have absolutely no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I simply love to learn. I don’t really care what the topic is but I just love learning something new. I am a by-the-book definition of an introvert. If you ask me a yes or no question I will give you a one-word answer and not elaborate. I don’t really like to speak (notice it says speak, not write) to people. I know that seems extreme but I feel like it takes so much work and so many things can go wrong that I prefer to say nothing at all. To be perfectly honest, I don’t know how to love someone outside my own family. I can’t envision a true relationship with another person working out. In ten years I see myself living alone and I don’t think there is anything wrong with that. I have low self-esteem. I seriously think that all of the shy, quiet, introverted people of the world should just get together and hang out. One of my greatest desires is to be in a room full of books forever.