Belinda's memoir 'Under Siege' provides an insight into the high-octane world of homicide investigation and hostage negotiation and the effects of these demanding roles. In an 18 year career in the NSW Police Force, Belinda Neil worked in general duties, as an undercover operative, and as a major crime squad detective investigating illicit drug operations, organised crime and homicide. Belinda was also a police hostage negotiator, trained to counter terrorist level. In any one day she could be called to a brutal murder such as the De Gruchy killings or, as a negotiator, persuading the murderous and suicidal to drop their weapons, stop terrorising families, step back from the ledge. It was hardly surprising that over time the horrors she saw began to take their toll and she succumbed to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Her career ended, her marriage broke down leaving her a single mum to 2 young children, and she found herself contemplating suicide by jumping off a cliff at the Moreton Bay National park. Under Siege is the story of a very interesting policing career that shows how the build up of symptoms of PTSD led to her eventual collapse, and demonstrates how Belinda managed to drag herself back from a very dark place to commence her road to recovery.