Byanca M.

i'm a nineteen year old confused, sad, unmotivated teenager. i am nineteen and i feel like my life is going nowhere until i met this person who made me follow the corrrect path. i am still learning a lot of things and i am eager to know more.

i should be in new york by age 26. or 27 (fine). i am writing this one down as proof that whatever is happening by that time, i should find a way to be in the place i ought to be. and maybe with the person i love, too. if possible.

but when the day comes, maybe new york.. maybe i will realize that i don't deserve it / its not for me. i want it with the understanding that i can never have it.

i find myself mostly collecting all sorts of books from bookstores and online shops. they're all just sitting on the shelf, waiting to be opened and to be explored by me, but now's not the time for that. with all the stuff happening in my life, i am lucky enough to finish a book in a month.

i also found myself being in love with a girl with whom i never expected to be in love with. heck, the idea of being in love with a girl is the thing i did not expect. but here i am now, arms open wide, heart full of love, for the girl who lives a thousand miles away from me. but this distance just proves that love like this is still possible.

to quote françois rabelais, "i go to seek a great perhaps."