Charlotte Michaels

I'm just nineteen, but I feel I have so much experience already with life in general; that experience of heartache, falling in love, fighting for something and getting it, fighting for something and losing it. I have had everything handed to me on a plate, and then I've had that plate taken away from me. I know what it's like to desperately want someone you can never have. I know what it's like to desperately want someone, get them and then watch them walk out again. I know what it's like to desperately want somone, get them and for the time being; keep them.

At just the age of nineteen, I've experienced the whirlwind of feeling on top of the world, like nothing could get any better and at such a young age, frightened that nothing really could or would be able to get any better - when you've already got the best, how can you get better? Then just like that, I suffered the turmoil of wanting to kill myself, of feeling like I wasn't worthy of a life, the feeling of wishing someone who had died, was me; because I knew darn well they'd have done so much good with their existance than I did with mine. Karma is an amazing philosophy, isn't it? She always senses when you're taking something for granted. It's funny how I was already starting to get bored of my 'fabulous' life, thinking it was going to stay like this forever, and all of a sudden, it wasn't so fabulous anymore.

I used to resent karma, these days, I thank her. Without my life falling from epic heights, I would never have delved into the depression that would eventually become the making of my being. "What do you buy the girl who has everything?" I used to be that girl. Now? I don't have everything physically, but mentally, I like to think I do.

Excelsior, means to move ever upward. To know that there's always a silver lining in reach - some times you can reach it straight away, other times you need a ladder, some times you need to work to get that ladder in the first place; but the silver lining is always there, and it's the one thing in your life that will always be waiting for you.