Cindy's Blog

About

I was born in a religious conservative family. From my earliest memories I was in church every Sunday. We were identified with the Church of God in Carlisle, a small town in Pennsylvania where I spent the first seventeen years of my life. Church life was central to our family.

Many struggles came in my teen years, even though I still went to church every Sunday. Even then something seemed wrongheaded to me. Yes, I received information about who God was but He seemed so far away.

The Gifts of Mid-Life
At the age of 42 I encountered a major crisis in my life. I couldn't ignore any longer a growing sense of restlessness and dissatisfaction around my faith. Increasingly I had come to feel uncomfortable with head knowledge about God. I had lots of thoughts and opinions about God, (but had very little experience of God).

For many years my knowing of God was a matter of knowing about him. Faith was more intellectual assent than emotional reliance or trust.

What was awakening within me was dissatisfaction with substitution head knowledge for spirituality I had accepted. What I longed for was an authentic knowing of God.

It is worth noting, however, that I have never felt myself to be more deeply Christian than I am at present. I hold my beliefs with humility as I journey with those who have the same longing I do. My journey has been one of transformation.

Were I Am At Present
The things that seem most important to me now are relational, and communal. I continue helping others on their personal journey of transformation--- as they in turn help others on their journey.

At this stage of my journey I desire to be attuned with God for His purpose in my life. "Now I have found the freedom to truly live for God. I have been crucified with the Anointed One—I am no longer alive—but the Anointed is living in me; and whatever life I have left in this failing body I live by the faithfulness of God’s Son, the One who loves me and gave His body on the cross for me".