Carmella R

I will be retired from state employment the happiest day of my life's ell it did happen a year and half since then I have been home and taking of my yard and see my grandkids beign married is hard and this addiction with porn is so childish why don't I get it , I guess some women enjoy that I just do not does that me a prude? Well I love sex and I love being married is it just me thinking that two married people in love for 23 years could stay happy well I was very content until the day I came home and my husband shot me i felt the pain immedialtly I cried for 36 hours the pain of seeing the man I love just staring at iPad was pathetic so I did look into and have realize that guess what it is a multi million dollar business the only problem I have is he is looking at young girls all younger than me Should I just accept it? Are all men like this ? Am I just stupid and expect a man with grand daughters. And daughters the same age he was looking at not to be arouse guess so I should shake it off ignore after all it is what they all do . I just did not think my man would silly me why bother with exercise and trying to take care of my body he does not care about his body I love it he is in his 63 years old I am just feeling like an old lady and I know that I do not need to take a pill or look at photo videos to get my self pump up I just look at the man I love . Boy do I feel let down