Dana Gidner

Through losing my dad I have learned to become a little harder in the heart, to shield what my guardian always shielded for me, you can call it as I was spoiled or over protected but from the past he saved me from I needed to be. Ive been called a spoiled brat from a man I trusted. but I was raised to see the man protects the women, not abuses. I was saved by and taught that by a hreat man that I love and adopted me making me forever a GIDNER! Without anyone by my side, I have to protect myself from all that Was around me before him. Im not afraid of starting over I just wish I could find someone to love and comfort me, stand by me through good and bad. Not leave when Im in danger from myself or anyone else.

Im just a woman with a story of a girl to tell. "Once hiding in dark shadows after coming out of her cocoon, she casts out upon the sunlight and within time she turns in to a beautiful butterfly. A butterfly whos scars have now just become her trophies, a mark on her wings that the world can see but it will not slow her down. Proving that what doesnt kill her makes her stronger and she will concur her dark enemies of life. Under all the weakness is a strength that will flutter and fly to the highest point of life where happiness, love and trust greet her to land and be. Underneath her surface is a free spirit that those who take the time to watch her will see. " -Dana Gidner

I love deeply (sometimes this is my weakness) and give my all and dont give up easy. I fought for 10 years and then another 7. the first time young and settled. The second time I did really love I fought until fighting became bad. I had to ley go of trying to protect and save as my dad did for me. I gave to two wonferful children who I wished were Mine as well as to their father. I gave them all I was and more. reality is though.. I saved tjem by leaving. By staying it showed them the wrong example of how a man and woman should love. It showed them it was okay for the woman to do and give all and they were even learning it was okay to disrespect me when their dad told them to. To this day I miss them, as i write this it gives me tears but I know in my heart they will forever have a place and anyone in my future has to be able to understand that. They were just kids it was not their fault. Their dad and I loved each other but as the song goes " sometimes love just aint enough" Their dad and I both failed. I couldnt fight anymore, i hate to verbally or physically fig