estee gautier

i'm not sure if creating stories, imagery, and chronologies is as much of a motivator for being a writer as is the pleasure of pressing a perfect pen to pretty paper. it simply feels good. either way, i've an masochistic addictive personality began writing my life away. and these are snippets of my insanity unfolding.

over the past decade, i've been exploring writing and music with the intention to document, describe, and accept my experiences. In this time, i've transitioned from journaling to free-writing to memoirs to poetry. all of these styles are attempts at bringing my awareness of reality to the forefront, and making sure my thoughts don't go unacknowledged just because i'm soft spoken.

my writing draws inspiration from anxiety, mother-daughter interactions, catholicism, pabst blue ribbon beer, social justice, intimacy, emetephobia, young adulthood, trauma, bi-sexuality, attention deficiency, and all the beautiful boys and girls in the world.

with my sun sign in libra, fiery rising and moon signs in sagittarius, and a need to keep moving, i want to be heard, and put little importance on being understood.