emily

hi, my names emily. im fourteen and live in the east coast of USA. i mostly enjoy spending my time listening to music, thinking, or on tumblr... very original, I know. I like to think of myself as different. meaning, I'm not a regular 14 year old teenage girl. I don't go shopping every weekend, I don't live in a huge house with a walk in closet and have parties almost every Friday. I like to explore nature, meet new people, and make art. I've had many of boyfriends in the past, all of them not sparking any type of actual love in me. I've fallen in love, though. I know, surprising.

I love art and fashion. I want to either be a magazine editor when I'm older or work in some type of music job.

I've had many of experiences with suicide. I've had depression, times where I was too dug deep into my own dark hole to help myself climb out. I've had social anxiety, where I would get so scared to talk to anyone that I'd physically cry or run away. And a certain someone saved me. All of that is past me though, it's in the past. And I can't change it, nor can I run away from it. But I'm proud of my past. I'm not ashamed, because those experiences just made me even stronger today.

I love different types of music. Indie, alternative and classic rock / reggae are my favorites. I love the way music inspires me. How such different voices can come together to form such a beautiful melody. I love that.I love hanging with my friends, going to festivals, concerts, anything that's fun and exciting. I'm not the one to get drunk all the time though. That isn't for me. Nature. Nature is my escape. I go into the woods for inspiration, the park for some smiles when I'm down. I love sitting by the water and just listening. Thinking. Nature allows me to be myself, which is in very small dosages today.

School doesn't play a huge role in my life. Many people may think it does, but to be honest, it doesn't.. At all. School is a place to learn, lately it's been a place to make you sad, to make you work until you drop dead from exhaustion. We're not really learning anymore. I don't think the things were being spoon fed into our mouths will help us in 20 years. We won't have to go to the store and say, "oh wait, what's the formula of y!" to pay for our groceries, now would we?School isn't school anymore.

So, those are my opinions. My thoughts. I hope you got to know a bit of me.I'm Emily. not an average teenage girl.