I want to "be Me", more than anybody else in this world! (Think: Alexander & Diogenes). Also, I really want to approach or reply to you with either the respect that I have for myself, or for you; whichever is greater at that time. Like You, and I believe this about you as well: I believe that the best years are ahead of us all [not behind us]! Now… Who am I, and what do I do?? I'm a simple man who works as in a kitchen dude in one of America's favorite restaurants- studying the "Ph" (∆Philosophy) in all of their PhD's out there :-) I work I study I exercise. That's my life.

For each and every person that I meet in this life going forward, it is an absolute ADDITIVE for me ;-) There isn't a better gift to give me, I swear! (To know the truth that the upper echelon know? Wow!!! - Goal). To be reminded by pure awe both that I am, and that I am not ‘so great’ in this lifetime by such occasions plants some humility in me. -And also in many separate ways to boot. Either you teach me or remind me or something-(!).

I've been ‘There’. I can only tell you where it ain't… ‘Here’. But, you'd be surprised what is!!! You can put together more from that. But it doesn't come to us. It's like the observer effect that I can tell when we finally look to become Wise - if we ever do. Think of a splinter. That thing goes in your finger and because there's not a million systems to support it, the body rejects it, eats it, isolates it, but don't do nothing to help it! Switching gears, I don't believe in Evolution, but rather, Creation being the one to make the splinter work out. I think we were all stitched into this planet and stitched into this very environment. I believe in "meant to be".

Baudrillard (Matrix scene w/ green hollowed-out book), Adorno (difficult), ànd then as far back as Diogenes of Sinope we are shown "The Matrix". -BELIEVE IT! I don't have to, because I put the Face-time into the data available to us all. I don't want to have anything to do with anyone who doesn't want to hear what gets in the way of their Pleasures. Tis but at least ‘one Sin greater than "not giving way to Natural Pleasures" ; and that would be: to give way to Ignorance (Willful ignorance).

My cancer was a ‘certain event' emergent type of situation. So were the 3 coronaries; in fact, a ‘relatable’ nickname referencing such a thing names that of my particular severity of that type of event (the Widowmaker!). I can look at those CDE's now as NDE' (near death experiences). I Pheonexed-up from that destruction, impossibility so, and absolutely impossible on my own Willpower before all of that! -They were ‘the’ catalyst for my change into what I call "Philosophical Form".

I didn't RUSH here to cause my more ‘withdrawn into Nature’ ways to become engrained into me. The better way to call it is that I "walled myself off" essentially. When I said "No!" to posions entering into my body, with as much or better knowledge as I used in the past respectively, it left me with few choices. You've got to eat… pick! Accordingly, I'm going to believe that it must have taken more than I possessed logically or locally to increase into my Form of today; because from being verbally cemented into my deathbed and hope castrated, and thus, so many times of ‘true uncertainty’, where in the end, while leaving me very grateful to have been propelled through it all, I am also changed from it all to a fundamental depth.

There were a lot of objects in this gauntlet; "13" - if we're counting each subsequent Code Blue called as well. I give myself credit for immediately dropping bad habits saying no to all poisons and exercising until I dropped/drop, all beginning over half a decade ago. They told me I'd never get better in front of a witness, and now, I look better than i recall seeing them :-) I'm the only one who could give this to me. I knew this, but I didn't know it either.

I wouldn't change anything in my past because what if that kept me from getting through my 5 year long gauntlet? It would have only taken one of those 13. And what if I changed something that caused somebody else to get hit in their gauntlet where they otherwise wouldn't have? Therefore, I'm just grateful for the moment that I have. :-)

The end.