I want to "be Me", more than anybody else in this world! (Think: Alexander & Diogenes). Also, I really want to approach or reply to you with either the respect that I have for myself, or for you; whichever is greater at that time. I believe that the best years are ahead of us all, not behind us.

Who am I, what do I do, and all that stuff? Enneagram type: 5W4. I like to study the "Ph" (∆Philosophy) in all of their PhD's out there :-) I work, I study, I exercise, and i recover in all of the ways that I can therein. That's my life. "I gave my all after every fall", and many times, because of that i believe, I survived against combined odds so rare they must be new to gauge now!

For each and every person that I meet in this life going forward, it is an absolute ADDITIVE for me ;-) There isn't a better gift to give me, I swear! (To know the truth that the upper echelon know? Wow!!! - Goal). To be reminded by pure awe both that I am, and that I am not ‘so great’ in this lifetime by such occasions plants some humility in me. -And also in many separate ways to boot. Either you teach me or remind me or something-(!).

I've been ‘There’. I can only tell you where it ain't… ‘Here’. But, you'd be surprised what is!!! You can put together more from that. But it doesn't come to us. It's like the observer effect that I can tell when we finally look to become Wise - if we ever do. Think of a splinter. That thing goes in your finger and because there's not a million systems to support it, the body rejects it, eats it, isolates it, but don't do nothing to help it! Switching gears, I don't believe in Evolution, but rather, Creation being the one to make the splinter work out. I think we were all stitched into this planet and stitched into this very environment. All these aspects are variables to a heavy-duty thinker to sort (eat, breathe, multiply, more), not Goo-forming Chance of some kind.

Baudrillard (Matrix scene w/ green hollowed-out book), Adorno (difficult), ànd then as far back as Diogenes of Sinope we are shown "The Matrix". -BELIEVE IT! I don't have to, because I put the Face-time into the data available to us all. I don't want to have anything to do with anyone who doesn't want to hear about what gets in the way of their Pleasures. Tis but at least ‘one Sin greater than "not giving way to Natural Pleasures" ; and that would be: to give way to Ignorance (Willful ignorance).

I can look at those CDE's that gimme some lightning riding to remember (and sparked a ‘smooth flowing’ dream state during zaps) as NDE's (near death experiences). I Pheonexed-up from that destruction, impossibility so, and absolutely impossible on my own Willpower before all of that! -They were ‘the’ catalyst for my change into what I call "Philosophical Form".

I didn't RUSH here to cause my more ‘withdrawn into Nature’ ways to become engrained into me. The better way to call it is that I "walled myself off" essentially. When I said "No!" to poisons entering into my body, with as much or better knowledge as I used wrongly in the past (respectively), it left me few choices. You've got to eat, so pick! Accordingly, I'm going to believe that it must have taken more than I possessed logically or locally to increase into my healthy looking form I've developed. I look like the anthesis of their castigations, but to capitulate to them… 100% I'd be on pharmaceuticals atm.

There were a lot of hits. I give myself credit for immediately dropping bad habits saying no to all poisons and began exercising until I dropped ‘from go’; tightening-up.. They told me I'd never get better. So… I got VERY stubborn! I can't say when it crossed over into determination, just that I threw it all down and if they're right, then THIS is the Afterlife.

I wouldn't change anything in my past, because what if that kept me from getting through my 5 year long gauntlet? It would have only taken one of those many NDE's. Plus, what if I changed something that caused somebody else to get hit in their gauntlet where they otherwise hadn't so far? Time-travel sounds fun till then. Therefore, I'm just grateful for ‘the Moment’ that I have. :-)

I am NOT the perverbial Bottom Class looking across at any others, although it should appear that way to anyone casually peeking in at my Path in Life. I'm simply noticing that which most haven't… and you're the "that" and the "most".

In the end, MY idea of "Success" is to live more lively and understandingly. I never quit trying in order to get here; I went to any length necessary in order to survive, and I did :-) I saw it was necessary to drop Big Pharma, and consequently, I'm renewed unlike ever before! Surgeries, Diet, Edu, and physical delivery of my health all smashed in on me, and 500 plus Cycling miles a month down the road later… I'm killing it instead if it-me.

And finally, I'm awake to ‘the Truth’ now; in the mind of every beholder much like Beauty. In conclusion, ‘I direct me’, not the Simulacra of Baudrillard, or the bullshit of others.

The end.