Hannah Stephanie Rudd

Hi. My name's Hannah, but I prefer being called Stephanie, don't ask me why. I've had a love and passion for music ever since I first picked up an acoustic guitar when I was seven years old. Since that day, I've just got crazier and crazier about it. I'm in my element when I'm up on stage performing in front of an audience - the stage purely feels like my second home. The reasoning behind my passion for music comes from a much darker place though. I've been bullied for about half of my life now and I'm only just starting to stand up for myself. It's not clear to me why I'm victimised like this. I use to think it was my body shape, resulting in me self-harming, which thankfully I no longer do. However, I'm still not happy with the way I look, but then again, who is these days? Then I began to think it was because I'm a complete geek and that I find most academic challenges come naturally to me. I didn't ask to be academic though, did I? When I was being created, I didn't put in a request for me to be academic, did I? No. It just happened and I don't think I should be apologising for being who I am. I'm outgoing and sometimes, yes I can be extremely loud, but only when I'm excited. If I'm quiet for a long period of time, that's when you need to be worried. I'm a happy person and full of life 99% of the time, but sometimes I can be deeply depressed. I like to talk to people and make them feel like they're wanted, purely because I know how hurtful and damaging to a persons confidence if they ever feel unwanted. It may seem like I've covered a lot so far, but trust me, I haven't even scratched the surface when it comes to me. I'm a very complex person and I believe there's only two people in the entire world that fully understand me. Even though I'm complex, I think I'm a reasonably easy person to talk and get along with. I hide my problems from the world, because the way I see it, there are far more important things going on in the world for people to worry about me. I'm studying a lot of things for GSCE, purely because I can and i couldnt narrow my choices down. I hope I get straight A*s so that I can get into sixth form. For A-Levels, I want to study music, music technology, media studies, English language and history. From then on, I wish to study either History or Music at Cambridge University. Career wise I want to follow the music route and become a world-renowned musician. I want to inspire. Expression is the key.