I adore Nina Dobrev. I love her confidence. I wish to also become a model or an actress like her but most of all ... a singer. However, my mother wants me to take art and design like my elder sister who I could and can never catch up to apparently.

"I dont understand why?

Why can't I beat her? I'm just as good at art.

My use of language , my writing... I'm better.

But no-one ... no-one! could see that.

The teachers, my piano teacher always thought I had the help of my sister and they thought thats how I succeeded.

But their all wrong. Me. And only me, made me succeed. "

It was depressing those times.

I was always humiliated by my sister.

She was the best in everyones eyes.

I mean, I looked back at her biography she wrote compared to mine in 6th grade.

Nothing could compare. I could not see why?

Then I wondered... I finally understood that they kept comparing me to the present her.

The one who is 7 years older than me.

I felt like I awoke.

Still, I dont want to step back into my sisters shoes.

I want to create my own path.

Just because my sister is choosing not to go to Cambridge university in London, doesn't mean I have to.

I'm not her replica.

Just cause your choosing something doesn't mean you just dump it on me.

I'm truly sorry.

I cannot continue in this utterly dumb plan of yours.

I shed tears every freakin' day just because I think I'm not good enough but, I've grown far from that.

I surpassed you you ages ago.

You just never knew it.