samuka jabateh

Hey there, I’m samuka. I’m a student living in Georgia. I am a fan of outdoors, writing, and running. I’m also interested in music and movies. You can listen to my music with a click on the button above.

I am part of a muslim family of five (parents and a younger brother and sister). Just like you guess, we pray five times a day, eat with our right hands ,etc. Fun fact, my parents are descended from the Mali Empire through their tribe : the Mandinka. Sounds cool at first but there are , in my opinion, outdated traditions like arranged marriages ( you can make a guess out this one). The bright side is that they treat others around them like family and treat them well which is pretty good in my opinion

Struggles? Usually , you would think school but its a little time to get personal. From childhood to early highschool, I felt that I didnt "exist". To be quite blunt, I felt lonely or rather i was. I assumed it was from the early years of bullying but that might be a slice of it yet not the whole pie. When i was with so called friends, I always tried to contribute to the conversations but they wouldn't respond nor even look at me. I assumed it was bad timing but could it have been that the friendship was a lie? Might have been because they forgot me easily while remembering each other easily. Usually, i would watch anime and read manga to chill and look up to the fictional characters because they were everything i wanted to be. From then on, I admittedly tried to please everyone by taking on the "roles' they wanted me to take. "the Loser", the "the clown", everything to have a purpose. Thankfully, i actually got out this self destruction by deciding to be the greatest me and not to give up then I found people i can call friends. In a sense, I died then. In the words of Herman Hesse, I destroyed the egg called the world and found my way to abraxas. Like one of my favorite manga, Tokyo ghoul/Tokyo ghoul re, said, we are all protagonists of our stories, we hurt and get hurt, reject and get rejected, whatever we do to each other is what happens to us. Life is sad but I continue then and now to be "beautiful", finding my own place by choosing. The loneliness that was my biggest burden became my greatest success because i gained courage.

In my free time, I love watching anime and reading manga but im also into Korean webtoons. Back in the day, they gave me strength and now, its a great source of entertainment for me. Also, I love listening to Japanese music