Jay Lopena

I am a sinner. Prodigal son. Selfish. Liar. Deceiver. Manipulator. Insecure. Cruel. Conceited. Evil. Undeserving of love.

Until such that Jesus Christ came into my life, and accepted Him as my Lord and Savior as a teenager. Jesus said, " I am the way, the truth and the life, noone comes to the Father except by Me" and "..except a man be born again, He cannot see the Kingdom of God". As a young man, I was ablazed with the fire of the Spirit and joy of salvation consumed me everyday. My heart's nothing but sharing the love of the Lord and the free gift of eternal life to those who believe and accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

I went on with my life as anyone else, but with arrogance, ambition and greed corrupted my faith and I had always lived a double life. Attended church, performed most of the Christian duties out of self-righteousness.

Looked for love in all the wrong places and people and fell to the enemy's devious plot to my life to destroy, defile and pervert me. I allowed myself to live a defeated life despite the assurance of a victorious life through Jesus.

Repented for my sins, asked forgiveness from the Lord and restored spiritually. I thought that was the end of it, as I pursued my dreams and goals, and drifted away faster than anyone thought because I consciously I couldn't let go a lifestyle that is egomaniacal, unholy and carnal. Hurt a lot of people who care for me along the way. Didn't matter to me as sin calloused my heart and lost all the fire in my heart as a believer.

I knew something died inside of me. For a few years, I kept on searching desperately on what's missing in my life. I would've conquered the whole world and still would never find what I am looking for because I already found it. Jesus. He is my loving Savior, came from heaven to earth to die for all my sins so I can inherit the kingdom of God.

His everlasting love what brought me to this crossroads. Now, "the truth has set me free" (John 8:32) from all the lies, chains and bondages of the enemy. I have surrendered all the Lord, absolutely everything as I patiently wait for Him (Psalms 3:7-9).
My spiritual eyes are once again more open, and focusing my vision to the Lord and heavenwards. I dwell in His amazing and abounding grace, that apart from Him, I am nothing (Psalms 16:2). Grateful for another chance to serve Him, worship Him all the days of Him until Kingdom come.

My story is not yet over