a simple girl.. of a complex mind. the first one to laugh.. but, still- the last one to get the joke. a girl who has been abused by those she trusted most; used by those she needed. her life is an ever-raging battle. one that she is determined to win. her body and soul bare so many scars. she is a strong girl, though some say she's weak. her strength has brought her thus far. it is the one thing that (looking back).. she can thank her dad for instilling in her, everyday. 'you must never give up.' 'quitting is a sign of weakness- and to be weak, is to be worthless.' 'strength is what you're all about.' 'it's where you come from.. and ultimately- it's how far you will go.' you'd see a girl who loves selflessly- and whole-heartedly. a girl who is far more innocent than her 'ghetto-nature' reveals. one who loves fairy tales. and still gets lost in her own dreams. somehow, deep down in her heart, she still believes in true-love, though she's been proven wrong more than once. she's seemingly developed some sort of complex about the fact that men can't seem to remain faithful to her. all the same- she finds cheating to be an unforgivable sin. it cuts too deeply, hurts too badly. it tears her down. this girl tends to keep a lot of shit inside, though she knows that can't be good. she finds shame in 'opening-up'. too many misjudged reasons, too much self-doubt, and way too much pain. she despises pity- and doesn't want others to think that she's looking for it. over the years- she's built so many walls. and with these walls come iron gates. only a select few are allowed beyond those gates, past her mind, into her heart. those are the few who truly come to know the girl behind the mask. those are the few that scare her. the ones that possess the power to truly hurt her. there are many things that she needs to let go of, to leave behind. she just needs to move on. she carries a heavy weight on her shoulders- one that most men couldn't lift. but, she carries it daily without complaint. there are times when this girl feels weakened by this heavy load, when her strength feels drained. there are days when she just wants to give up, to give in, to quit.. to just let go. she spends a great deal of her time by herself. she has learned to accept that (for whatever reason)- god seems to have intended for her to go through these dark times.. alone. and so she shall...