Johnalynn Hubbard

Have you ever had a moment where you sit and ask yourself who am I? Everybody goes on their own journey to find out who they are and what is their reason for being. It can become a struggle for any teenager growing into an adult. At one point in my life I believed I knew exactly what I was going to do with my life.
Senior year in high school, college is the next step. At the time I didn't qualify for financial aid and unfortunately my family did not agree with my college of choice so they refused to pay for my education. Therefore, I did what a young adolescent would do, I enlisted in the United States Army. They offered education, money, and a chance to travel the world. My family didn't like the fact that I would be leaving them but they accepted it. I had no idea what I was getting into I just hoped I could make something of myself and prove to everyone that I am somebody. As I got on the plane said good bye to all my friends and family for the last time I felt scared of what the future was to bring to me. I left to San Antonio, Texas Lackland AFB to start my training to be a military police officer for the United States Army. It wasn't a career I choose but I decided to give it my all. It was a difficult lifestyle change, all of a sudden I had to do my own laundry, wake up on my own, I felt I was alone. I didn't understand what was going on. I thought it was the worst decision I every made. I was not happy with having to wake up at 4am. After my training in San Antonio which lasted a total of 21 weeks I had received my orders to Germany where I would provide security and law enforcement for a military installation. I was excited, I finally got what I wanted which was to travel and see another country something I never did. I felt like I was accomplishing something.
Excited for the new adventure I found myself in, I felt like everything was going as it should. When I arrived in Germany I wasn't sure what to expect. As the days went by I still had not made any friends I didn't go out of my dorm room besides going to the store and my coworkers didn't really acknowledged me. I eventually became good friends with some guys from work and they took me out, being in Germany the drinking age was 16 so alcohol was available to me and being in another country away from your family alcohol seem like the perfect way to socialize. Alcohol opened up a door to friends and fun times, so I thought. As I started to become a binge drinker I stopped callin