Jane Plain

My name is Jane. I am a birth mother. I gave my son up for adoption when I was 14 years old after an unplanned pregnancy. Now, 6 years later at age 20, I am struggling to find what it means to be “good enough” for myself and for those that I love in my life.
I am currently a college student in the United States studying Biology, Animal Behavior and Medicine. The past few years have been hard coping with the heavy burden of the massive secret of becoming a mom AND choosing adoption for him all on my own without help from friends or family.
I have recently discovered that while I am also a bisexual I also believe and practice Polyamory (http://www.morethantwo.com/polyamory.html). I am now struggling to cope with the heartbreak and shock of my new identity, maintain my current long term relationship with who I love most dearly and accepting the heartbreak of my second love and our situation as it stands, deal with school and all its successes and failures ALL while trying to celebrate that my son has grown into a beautiful 6 year old and a 1st grader – all without me as his mother.
I am writing a blog to try to help manage the pain that I have felt over the long years of my short life as well as to reach out to other birth mothers, young adults, students and lovers who may need new perspective or to simply be reminded that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. As I try to answer the what it means to be “Good Enough”