JUMMANA ABOU SAMRA

I'm jummana abou samra .. I'm 16 years old .. I'm gonna talk about myself ... my life is so strange ... girls love me cause I'm popular ! .. I was about to end everything ... but one message had turned everything upside down ...i wore hijab even I didn't like it that time but I did ... boys used to threat me cause of my look and because my family is "ABOU SAMRA" and so did girls ... girls were more worse ... they closed the door on my arm many times until I fell and started crying... they once cut my hair to make a wig with it ... my life is so unbearable ... so I wore hijab but now I really like it ... I used to be all alone ... I really loved it .. At least I have my friends that really love me for me not for my look beside I'm not beautiful at all .. I'm not good enough for anything or anyone ... I'm just useless ... now I have many problems that really made me upset all the time ... I'm not ambitious anymore ... I don't know what I suppose to do ... ok I'm losin' everything and everyone .. that started to happen in 2011 ... that made me don't talk to the one that I needed to ... just lookin' at everyone and prayin' that they won't feel what I feel ... 3 years and I wasn't talkin' at all... this year I'm pretending that everything is ok when I realized that I can't solve'em ... I must know my truth ... I've to ... but at last ... I lost myself ... I'm tryin' to find myself since 2011 ! ... I found a girl that helped me ... she loved me and she trusted me ... she saved my life ... I wanna say my problem isn't a love story like everyone else ... it is losin' everything ...