Karen Bike

Hi, I'm Karen Bike. I'm from the UK, and I'm a teenager. I'm studying A-Levels which are Health + Social, History and Psychology. I want to be a mental nurse therapist because I think I've been through a fair amount in my life. When I was younger my parents got along, but me and my Mum fought alot; more than usual Mum's and Daughters do.. (I still love my Mum so much though), and recently my Mum and Dad seperated which involved us selling our house and me living between two houses in the week. My Dad then became suicidal and recently tried to kill himself, I'm looking after him now and he's getting better but it's putting a strain on me and my Mum's relationship. I see a therapist because I have an eating disorder called EDNOS, but I also think I suffer from Teen Depression and Generalised Anxiety Disorder but hey I'm not a psychologist or a psychatrist! I have a boyfriend, and quite a few friends but only 3 I really trust. I wish that people understood me, I seem to repeat myself alot but no one seems to understand what I'm saying, I feel like an alien in my own life. People dictate what I am, but to be honest I guess I prefer it that way because then I'm not in control because I have the tendency to be suicidal. Not many people know but I've tried to kill myself twice. I can't remember the last time I was honestly happy, and I can barely remember what that feels like.. I guess a few things stop the pain which would be therapy, Criminal Minds, Cougar Town and listening to music (but I can become very bored very easily). I feel I have to be polite all the time when I'm out in public even though I hyperventilate and my whole body becomes numb. I wish things would change so I can become happier, and try and make the world a better place, but to quote MJ "I'm starting with the man in the mirror" Thankyou, and I'm sorry for boring you.. <3