Key B

Starting life over has been hard, but with God , it has all been worth it. Music is my life. My family is my spine. Jesus is my guide.

It is a miracle that I am alive. I was born with one functioning lung on June 13, 1993. After several days of being on a machine, my mother received a call stating that my lung had not developed, and that I was to be taken off the machine due to financial issues. This day was a Sunday. I was born on the Sunday prior.

Before accepting my fate, my family (granddad, grandmother, mother, my four aunts, and my two uncles) banded together and prayed for me. A few minutes later the doctor entered into the hospital room and told my mother that I had a full recover. That, in a matter of minutes, my lung had fully developed. I left the hospital that day.

God is real.

Throughout my life I have been trying to run from this statement. Doing everything and anything to escape that ideal or not doing enough to recognize what this ideal meant for me and the world. I was falling in the process. After 22 years of running, I fell face down in complete darkness, paralyzed because of the decisions I chose to make.

That is when I found him. In that space.

But, the bliss did not last long because I wanted Jesus to be ONLY my Savior and Not my Lord. I wanted him to "be with me" and help me when I fell, or strengthen me when I was weak. I wanted a government rather than a king.

I use to question if God really did exist (even with the proof I had). I use to question his motives. Question why horrible things happened to good people and children. Why would someone in control allow that to happen?

The thing is he didn't. We did. We allowed these things to happen. He gave us free will. We chose to (Adam and Eve) decide and decipher from what is right and what is wrong. That decision has led to this outcome. However, he did give us a way out. A way to begin life over. A deliverance from a world we were born into. I didn't believe in this until I experienced this myself.

He is real. This is our choice, and the choice we choose accepts our future and our future generations.