For when I trace back the years I have liv'd, gathering them up in my Memory,If I were now to inscribe my own History with its unparalleled Sufferings and surprizing Adventures (as the Booksellers might indite it), I know that the great Part of the World would not believe the Passages there related, by reason of the Strangeness of them, but I cannot help their Unbelief; and if the Reader considers them to be but dark Conceits, then let them bethink themselves that Humane life is quite out of the Light and that we are all Creatures of Darkness. “Every life is inexplicable, I kept telling myself. No matter how many facts are told, no matter how many details are given, the essential thing resists telling. To say that so and so was born here and went there, that they did this and did that, that he married this woman and had these children, that they lived, that they died, that they left behind these books or this battle or that bridge – none of that tells us very much. I'm a girl , with an unfortunate love from family , friends & boyfriend. I know I am brat but some of me is pretty good. Likely, I have done a lot in my life which I realize that God is really great because he still gave me this kind of precious life even if I'm such a sinner person. I always walk away from God but he never did That to me. I always thought of others but not in my self. I am only fifteen years old who love to browse Internet and play computer games, who love to sleep in a abnormal way with friends, and I do love to cuddle with my boyfriend under the very very very strong rain, I had my capacity of giving this blessings to the persons who aren't great and contented in their lives. Making others happy but totally in my self inside I'm not that happy person because my parents are both in other country's and I am living in Philippines with my sister and grand parents. Logically, I live my life to the fullest with a great fake happiness. But when I'm with my boyfriend and friends i couldn't explain my happiness which can cover the pain in some reason. I love to go to school because of my friends. And I want to mention that I really wanted to be a millionaire and I wanted to be the perfect model, a perfect teacher, a perfect performer(even if I had a tone like Anne Curtis), a perfect Registered Nurse. I know I'm such a PERFECT AMBISYOSA GIRL. But, ten years from now I know I can't be that perfect but I know I can do that things with God :)