Kelly Smith

I'm a recovering drug addict. On drugs for 12 years, I've seen and been through a lot of things I want to forget. It's kinda funny the things i wanna remember I forget and vice versa. I've been clean and sober 6 years now. What really bothers me is my dreams of being a successful musician and writer are gone. Now I feel like I'm a mistake. I have to force myself to live life everyday because I feel like I missed my flight to the place I'm supposed to be and the plane is not coming back. Im married and have a job and it's very hard to explain why I'm so unhappy. The old worn out line "its not anything you've done" is getting old. I dont understand what I need to do with myself to get over this but I do know I'm not the only one out here. Musicians, lawyers, doctors and all sorts of professions have fell through I'm sure of it. I'm gonna blog about this and hopefully either help someone or get help myself.