Where do I begin to tell you who I am, and why, at an age where I should know what I want, I am lost in between life and chaos?
I DON'T come from what I considered, whilst in High School, to be a normal family. I would love to tell you I did. But then is what I thought constitutes "a normal family" even that? And don't get me wrong, this isn't about a trip through self pity, this is me trying to look at what shaped me, and got me to this "in - between space"!
I came from a strict religious upbringing, but although it appeared on the outside that we were just your normal religious family, what really happened behind those four walls of what was our home, was anything but!
It has left me scarred, and has me in a place in my life when still at 50 I have felt like I am just moving through life, with a permanent internal war!
I have been traveling through life, reaching a point and thinking "is this it?" "Is this the right person, the right place, or the right thing that will finally allow me to drop my anger and live my life? "
However, eventually it has all returned - the anger, the war, and resentment. And I have looked around and seen my war returned!
So this year, as it draws to a close, and the New Year is upon us I want to put down my bundle and find within me, a way to be at peace, a way to stop being at war, but in turn stop giving to everyone else 110% of myself, and then resenting myself for it! I want to find a way to learn to give to me, and I am NOT talking about things, but about time and happiness.
So journey with me and help me to get rid of the anger, and replace it with love for myself.

Are you game?