LiyanaLaili

You know the feeling when you miss someone so bad but you can't do anything about it except to wait? You know how does it feels when you need 'em to be around but they aren't there for you? You know how hurt it is to see them talking to everyone else except you? Yes, I am talking about that kind of feeling. That feeling that will always bring me to my tears whenever I think of him. I know I'm not his priority, nor all the time he had, he would spend it all with me. That is one bitter fact I have to swallow down my throat. That he's not going to be there for me always, and then I'll start to freak out and mess everything up. What do you expect? I'm a girl. I'm clingy sometimes, yes but I can't help it because I'm in love. I'm not blaming the situation I'm in, I know this clinginess will choke him on his neck someday and he's going to leave me for this. I know someday if anything happens between us, it'll going to be my fault.

If you read this, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so clingy that I couldn't help myself from letting you go when I had to. I'm sorry that I'm so demanding, I want you to be around everytime just because I miss you and I can't hold you like the way we used to. I'm sorry that everything that's happening to me now, is beyond my control and capability. I'm sorry that I can't even control myself from wanting you, from loving you and missing you.

I just want you to know that I love you more than anything, and yes my biggest fear now is losing you. Call it whatever you want; yes I'm obsessive, possessive but I'm sorry I can't help it. I don't care if this isn't real, or invisible, just call it. My feelings will always stay the same. I'm sorry that I freak out and if I ever suffocate you with my way of loving you.

I'm sorry for I have so many flaws that is impossible for me to conceal, so I decided to stay away from everything for a moment right now and I'll let you have your time enjoying yourself out there. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. I love you, and I'd like to apologize if I ever make you feel uneasy with my presence. Just remember, wherever you go and whatever you do I won't stop loving you. Take a good care, darling. Goodbye.