Manase Chiwaya

After devastating 25 where my soul is completely and slowly turned inside out, I'm different in many ways from how old friends might remember me. At one point I lost everything, over a fundamental inability to communicate my daily experience except in ways which people found offensive regardless of my intent. I still have a unique way of seeing the world, but there is a solid balance point within which was never in me before. I surrendered so many times that I became a loser in every game, and still the war didn't end. Now I hone the edge of my painful experiance into something beautiful to replace the angry young man I was, for I have won peace and Love. I am a Computer engineer and work as a consultant; I love my job and team members. I enjoy the challenge to keep a decent job in times like this, and feel fortunate. I learned that escapism and ego are inappropriate ways to manage life, and now I have a strong sense of destiny and a real desire to listen meaningfully to other people. I'm not good at it, but still I have a lot of ego, & I'm getting better, and deepening friendships reveal that I am no longer as stupid as I once was. My life is not simple. It is the most complicated thing I've ever known, yet at essence there is simplicity arising: "Be kind to others." I'm becoming less of a geek as I'm going out for more adventures lately.