adventurer in Mississippi
So the main reason I started this blog is to tell my many stories of how I am continually reminded that I am a great sinner and how he is an even greater redeemer. But I need to tell my story first, so here it goes!
I was saved at a very young age, long story short, I did not know what it meant and what it took to follow Jesus at the age of 7. So as most 7 year olds, nothing really changed about my life other than the fact that I thought elementary school was hard and I didn't like to clean my room...
Fast forward to college.... Bleh... This year (my first year of college) has absolutely sucked. Everything that could've gone wrong, went wrong. I was just starting school while coming out of a break up that really took a toll on me, and so naturally, I tried to fill my newly empty heart hole with new things. Instead of embracing my singleness to straighten up my identity in Christ, I ran away from it all. I started to hang out with guys who did not have any respect for me. I didn't care about my self worth or the fact that I was completely dishonoring God with my actions with these guys. I began to live two totally different lives. I would act one way with the worldly guys, and then show up to church and act like my heart was completely given to God.... what a pile of bologna right? I kept digging and digging myself into this deep pit of sin and selfishness. I began to lie about things to people that I love, and I caused great hurt in the hearts of people that I love.... It got bad...
but that's where God shows up
*que the Rocky theme song*
God came down into that deep deep hole of sin that I had dug myself into and he carried me out. Yes, I have suffered and sometimes continue to suffer from the consequences of my past sins, but it is all worth it. The freedom, peace, and joy that I have found in the Lord... the unconditional love that Christ shows towards me.... it surpasses all things. I am no longer am a slave to sin. It has taken me 19 years and a bunch of bad boys to realize that God is good and he is enough. Let me say that one more time. GOD IS GOOD AND HE IS ENOUGH. I'm not saying that my life is perfect now that I have fallen in love all over again with Jesus. It is a continuous decision every day to wake up and follow Christ. It's not an easy thing to do. But to live is Christ, and to die is gain.