Dear Life,

A lot of times I have taken you for granted, sometimes I dislike you, and one time I even threatened to end you. But today, faced with the smallest but very real possibility of losing you sooner than expected, I realized I am not ready at all to let you go. I apologize for not treating you right and treasuring you as I should.

Forgive me for being impatient when things don’t go my way. I know I easily get frustrated and curse to high heavens when challenges are thrown my way. Looking back now, I concede that everything just happened at the right place and time according to your perfect rhythm. I just needed to do what was needed and flow with you. I would have saved a lot of energy and enjoyed more of you instead of giving you deadlines to meet.

I’m sorry for being ungrateful. You have given me so much opportunities for happiness and fulfillment but I seldom took them and blamed you. Yes, it was easier to put the burden on you because you never answered me back. Maybe you did but I was too busy counting my disappointments to notice. I could have used the time more wisely by thanking you for my successes, no matter how small. That would have given me more space to grow.

Let me apologize for dwelling too long on regrets instead of counting my blessings which far outweighed them. I was too stubborn to see the futility of living in the past when I have the present to live for and the future to hope for. Everyday I have the choice whether to be happy or sad. It is such a shame that I frequently chose the latter and lost a lot of precious time in the process.

You are wonderful even with the ups and downs. It is a privilege to be given one chance to walk this earth and create memories of the person that is me. Please be patient with me a little more and let me continue living. From here onward, I will appreciate having you because not everyone gets as lucky...

_mhary