Dani Michaelson

I'm a 37 year young woman, with 2 BEAUTIFUL & AMAZING children!! Michael Greer, who turned TWELEVE on 01-01-01, and Savannah Greer, who turned 5 in May! TWO of my THREE biggest achievments in life! NOW, onto my THIRD ACHIEVMENT! My SOBRIETY! I have struggled many years with 'The Demon". I FINALLY KICKED HIS ASS! I, I'm really not that 'spiritual' but just yesterday, after my shower, have had MY SPIRITUAL AWAKENING! I have always 'prayed to God' before, but for things I have WANTED! Or to get my ass out of trouble, lol. I never understood why my life was the way it was, until yesterday! Because of where I am today, and because of WHAT I have today! I have EVERYTHING I NEED...NOT WANT! I want my relationships I damged back! I DON'T pray for HELP! God was just waiting ON ME, until I have had MY moment of clarity, to TRUELY BLESS me with what I have now, my sobriety being first and formost! Now, when I PRAY, I THANK HIM for making me wait, so I can appreaciate ALL of my blessings I have had but couldn't realize it until now. Becoming sober, having my spiritual awaking, is the most amazing, most precious thing in my life! I've burned bridges, I have said very nasty and hurtful things, to the ones I love the most, I have lied and manipulated in my addiction, I just never realized to what extent, and I just didn't realize for some, it would be more than a few years to make ammends with! I understand the hurt pain and heartache I brought to many, and now with a clear mind....I'm sorry, so sorry from the bottom of my heart! I lost my mother to addiction, sadly, I don't want to go that way! God rest her soul. 444 NOW it's time to FIX all this, because God is allowing me to do so! It's been a long, rough, self-destructive journey....but to be where I am NOW...everything I went through, a lesson well learned!.For all the people I have hurt, all the relationships I have DESTROYED....I'm sorry...with EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY FIBER OF MY BEING! God has given me ANOTHER chance, this is my LAST....I'm more then well aware of that, so from here, ONWARD AND UPWARD I GO!! One day at a time, that's the only way recovery works. I have the support I need and also thankful for N/A! I'm LIVING AND ACTUALLY LOVING LIFE....SOBRIETY IS AMAZING! My only wish is to get back relationships I lost when I was active in my addiction. Some refuse to budge and will always see me in a negative way, some just need more time, I hope, and others have accepted my sincerest apology. Whatever the case may be, I I'm really trying to accept it, but I find it difficult. I lost people I love the most! But I'm PROUD at where I am today! And on that note....God has granted me the serenity, the courage and the wisdom I needed to live productively! I GOT THIS!