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im so fucking low on u with everything now, i thought we were js a friend and not in relationship any, we broke up cant u fucking remember? and u get all that pmo cuz bc i left u on read? like do u feel as much angry if someone thats not me did the same to u? is ur friends that responsive either? cuz it gotta be so miserable for u when nobody response, i dont know but does it has to be that serious? do u treat urself the same when u left someone on left too huh? i guess not cuz ur that MATTER

am i to be blamed for it? yeah i fucking am cuz i know im an asshole and not good enough for you, sorry i fucking guess.

i swear to fucking god talking to u is like babysitting, i cant be gone for too long or else ull start having a tantrum, and u js happen to make it mandatory or else ull get pmo asf, see how it kinda become a chore now? me no talk long = pmo, me no reply = pmo, everything is js pmo to u.

what the fuck is this that u js delete “shoo im not your option” did u js stop having a period in ur head and stop being pmo now? if u want to be an “option” that much then fine, cuz ur an option that i STOP GIVING A FUCK about now, hope that fucking helps u finally be an option that u want to be so much despite i didnt even treat u as one, u fucking get it now? have fun with it.

I'll stop pretending that I'm not just a cancer spot in your heart cuz my hope to see a brighter future for ourselves so is dimly lit I forgot that I am in this pathethic cycle of "Love > Grief > Regret> Back on love" , I will leave you by my own so you can stop messing your feeling up just because some fucking irresponable fucktard forgot to reply to you.

I hope you have so much joy and happiness in life without me.

I hope you have many friends to talk with when you're sad and lonely.

I hope you have someone special that you can truly be yourself, taking care of you and make you feel you're the best ever in this world.

I hope you inspire other people to fulfill their passions just like you do.

I hope you finally catch on and make your passionate projects to its highest potential and get successful with it.

I hope you become a better version of yourself in the future and making it thru as an anxious puppy.

Take it as genuine or sarcasm it's up to you, because it will be the last time that will ever talk about you, when you heard my voice flowing somewhere on the internet when I'm famous with new identity then don't drag your sorry ass back to me, cuz I'm just a “Bad Option” for you and I'm not worth shit. THANKS so much for treating me like this despite everything I did for you, it's one first sweet and regretful love that we had.

I love you, goodbye.

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Please know that i don't have this account login with app, it's on phone discord web so I don't get notif, like at all, and I don't have a time to check notif everytime, especially when I am outside without my pc, i have a life too...

I don't even know if you're able to acknowledge that sometimes I got stuff to do, wether it's some random thing or actually going out and socialize, so I don't get a chance to check your dm everytime, and sometimes I'm really contested with it I forgot to check too, ok? Not that I don't check your dm, I do almost everytime waiting for you to reply while you're playing or really into something at a time, but once I got into something too I forgot to check your messages and when I'm back you already deleted it, and that also doesn't help anything but also make me feel like talking to a wind, start to see how it's the same coin but different side? If we want it to be perfect then both of us should open the chat 24/7 so we know when someone reply back, but I know that's impossible and chronically online as fuck, tho you can blame me as always of course, I'm always the slow one.

Yeah sorry but being such a irresponsible fucktard that forgot to reply to someone precious like you, you can blame me all you want, I deserve it, sorry if I can do enough for you that your patience can't stand how slow I am sometimes, sorry if I can't be responsible and quick enough that you won't just delete your messages after you sent it but it's so long you feel like you're left unread…

Now I sound like a complete fucking loser rambling about nothingness to nobody.