christa

Hi there world. :) You can call me Christa, or Tiffa. I was born Novemer 5th, 1997. I am fifteen years old and I reside in the snowy state of Maine.

I have secrets. Like the fact that I used to like school because English class was an escape. A place where I could write stories of non-fiction, although everybody thought they were fiction. I have another secret, that I don't tell anyone because I don't want them treating me differently. I struggle with Social Anxiety,( I am very, very shy) depression and the dreaded self destruction. When I look back, I realzied that these things started for me at a very young age. When I was In Elementary school, I was labeled the quiet one because being around a group of people made my mouth dry and my throat close up. I didn't trust a lot of people so I kept to myself. The depression started around the age of six, when I was blind to my mothers secrets. Her secrets included drug use, and prostitution. These secrets resulted in my younger sister being taken, who I haven't seen in quite some time. The self harm started at the age of thirteen, When my abusive step father moved me and my family to the Coast Guard base in New Jersey. There, I was seperated from my best friend in Maine and left with the cruel kids that I attended the seventh grade with.I ended up moving back to Maine, But that was where my depression got really bad, and I felt like nothing around me was actually real. I ended up on medicines I stopped taking and continued cutting my thighs, I keep it a secret from everyone around me to this day. I live with my mother and my brother now. Another thing you should now about me is how much I love music. I like a lot of music, really. Including Sleeping with sirens and Ed Sheeran. (my favourite GInger.) I enjoy reading, blogging, dreaming, sleeping,showers, things that smell good, and green tea. I day dream about moving to Hawaii, learning to surf, and owning my own buisness where I sell framed photography. Welcome to my world, and if you actually read all of this, Thank you.

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