My secret life

1 September 2012. Saturday. 7.16 p.m.

Hey. so today is my first time creating a website. And this will be the beginning of how i'm living in my life. I've gone through lots of things. So if you have a problem.. I'll be your listening ear. I've lived a fearful and horrible life ever since i joined WRPS. My friends kept using me. I kept making them happy while i'm here who needs a friend to talk to about my life and someone who can make me happy. Somehow.. i dont think anyone understands me at all or my life. I just want a wish. And only one. I wish want to live a normal and perfect life. I'm like... right here trying to fake a smile everyday. I really wish people can see through smile. Whether is it a fake one or a real smile. So yup... i'm really new creating blogs and websites. So... pls... i dont want to have haters..

1 September 2012. Saturday. 11.21 p.m.

I have a friend name.... S_ _ _ NON. She's been using me and also.. i bought for her 124 squishies, but some are rare, i just didn't want to tell her that i bought alot coz i wanted to give her as a surprise. Coz she really love squishies but now..... nvm. Because of her i got scolded by G_R_. I HATE HIM ALOT!! And than... i found out.. someone told me that she's been using me. I was really sad. Sometimes i usually try my best to make her happy. I really regret all the things i've done for her. She might be living in pain too. But i dont believe that she live in pain much more worse than me. The more i think about that she's been using me. The more i feel like killing myself. I dont give my trust to just anybody. But.. because she's my bestfriend. I gave her my trust 3 times.... and i was dumb to do that.. I HATE HER!!!! I WILL FOREVER WILL!! I really want to admit those things but when i think about her... i feel that she will become sad. I feel guilty.. But at least i have a true friend! She's J_ _ _ AH. She's really kind and she's pretty too !! XD

But seriously .... i hate her!!! Now that i think too much, i seriously hate her!!! After all i've gone throught for HER!! This is what i get?!!? Used?! Scolding?! I HATE HER!!!! Also!! She stole J_ _ _AH boyfriend and her 4 years bestfriend!!!

2 September 2012. Sunday.

I hate S_ _ _NON!!!! I hate her! Today... i'm really hurt.. i hate her!! I'm cried really badly. And my heart really really hurts. I have nothing else to say. But i wish that i've never EVER met her before!! EVER!!!!!!!!!