nikola fortner

in my distant future i plan to write back to bethany, watch melrose place and dawsons creek and supernatural on netflix, and go to ny. all that would b a lot easier if some1 w/ the initals of d.m. could let me have a conversation w/ him and for once we could hang out. but that cant happen because i get so giddy around him and he wont answer my emails or voicemails anymore. i wish our friend paul wouldnt ignore me either. anyways if i have a son i want to name him jack and if i have a daughter i want to name her rachel. i dont like the names michael and sarah anymore. i havent let a guy put his dick in me yet because im not having a one night stand. ill believe in true strong love again when i see it. the puppy love i can relate to more. i like hearing and seeing it better if its not from taylor swift. at first when i had taylor swift's first 2 cds my mom wasnt interested but now she has the 2 cds tat came after that. i wish i had a brother. i am an only child. ive had a dog named blackie forever so she wont last much longer. i wish i could go to a concert with a friend. ive only been to concerts with my mom before. my dad works for usps. his days off r monday and tuesday. my mom wishes those were saturday and sunday. i havent been inside a church since ive been livin in fl. i would of stil been in md if my dads work in nj didnt close. i would of stil been in nj if stuff wasnt so expensive. i would of had a lot more if my mom didnt get in to so many car accidents. i wonder if im gona crash every1 of my cars like my mom does. my dads family is so much nicer than my mom's. they both mostly live in nj. my dads parents r from pa. my "uncle ed" is in a carolina. my "aunt eileen" is in peru. my "uncle danny" is in pa. its weird how much my mom's and dad's family r similar. ive seen alice in wonderland and the losers with daniel holman. he used to b a very good listener. i dont talk to him anymore. his gf is a bitch! id like to finsh watchin teen spirt. i have yet to start the series of gilmore girls and take the money and run. i have 4 posters in my bedroom. one is the rules of weddin crashers w/ a quote and a pic of a chick in a glass. another is many magical creatures that r wasted. another is a window of 2 unicorns near a castle, hilltop, trees, and a stream. the last poster is of a waterfall. the waterfall is in my version of paradise. i want to get married in vegas. i want to smoke, drink, fuck, gamble, and get more energy to dance, scubadive. ill b a...