Orahanh Nhanesana

To be honest I've sat here for literally 20 minutes and decided to just type whatever comes to mind. Because in all honesty I have so much to say with little room to share. I guess I can start out by saying I'm not like most of my average 26 year old friends. If this is even possible, I'm a 50 year old women trapped in a 26 year old's body. And I'd like to thank my three little monkeys for that- the growing up part

Admittedly, becoming a mother early in life has been a great blessing. The experience of caring for another's life than my own has changed the way I viewed life. It took me a while to realize that just because I believed in different things and I'm content with myself I'm unique. And we all are. Now before you guys all start thinking how big headed I am, I want you to know that it took me a long time to accept myself for who I REALLY am. I am who I am! Big Headed and all!My home is my haven, my sanctuary. Instead of partying on a Saturday night, I'm at home playing tea party with my daughter and homework with my boys. I can cope myself in front of the fire place with all my darlings, face in front of a book and that to me is pure bliss. Oh and don't forget my toe socks!

Working has always been easy for me, but in my previous jobs I was never really happy. I'm a peoples person so getting along with coworkers was just natural and I enjoyed helping others so sales and customer service came naturally. Like I said, I just wasn't happy especially because my family NEEDED me 24/7. I care for 2 families and sometimes instead of feeling like a wife, a mom, a sister or a daughter I felt like everyone's secretary. I felt unappreciated, actually i was unappreciated, everyone was so use to me saying yes because I never said no. I created nothing but stress and heartaches on myself. Not only did it effect my work performance but it guided me to doing this. Typing away at 4 in the morning.

I found myself going through major depression. Every job I was good at had to end, my life was just hectic. It became a pattern, I'd tell myself it's either financially support my family or emotionally support them and I chose both! Now I look like my true self; a 50 year old women who has just hit mid life crisis. Now I do what I love doing. Writing, I may be bad at it but I love doing it. We're happy and that's all that matters.

Orahanh Nhanesana