Little Orange Book

My goal with this account is simply to encourage those who God brings this way. I have a heart for those who self harm, as God allowed me to experience it for a short time. I am here if you ever need a friend.

My friends know me as a happy go lucky girl that's talented in the field of music. I play violin and piano, and will be attending college in the fall for Music Education. I love to teach, and hope that everything I've gone through will help me reach out even more to my students.

Inside, I struggle with perfectionism, which easily leads to self-bullying and, several times, self-harm. I'm learning how to forgive myself, and through my friends' help, putting down my favorite tools of self harm - I've used everything from rubber bands to a pocketknife to my fingers. I've cried myself to sleep more nights than I'd admit. I hurt inside. But most my friends would never know, because I only get funnier and happier on the outside when I'm hurting and falling apart the worst.

I blog about what I've gone through, am going through, and the amazing God that's led me through it at littleorangebook.blogspot.com