Joen Park

My name is Jolie Park. But just call me Joen. I am from Seoul South Korea, but I am also part French. I have lived in England for about 9 months, and am hoping to go to school here and become a famous photographer. I rarely show my work to the internet world, but hopefully one day you will be able to find a "Made by Jolie Park" sign somewhere. *giggle*

I am 18 years old, and born January 25th 1995. I am currently working at the Sanrio Store in London.

I suffered from anorexia when I was 17 years old. It was probably the worst mistake I have ever done in my life. I thought I was over, but I soon got better (thankfully). Now, I am perfectly fine.

When I was in Korea I attended an all girls school. ~

I used to be obsessed with my figure, I would always think I was never perfect. I was always sad and lonely and depressed. Like I had nobody to talk to. Which then, lead to anorexia. Like I said, one of my huge mistakes in life. I realized I could have probably died. I'm very thankful that I am still here today.

I looked back at the time i had anorexia, and I also looked back on all the times I would force myself to throw up, or whenever I had a really bad headache from not eating for a couple of days, that I was being very selfish. I wasn't thinking about how me doing this woud affect my family, friends, or even the people around me.

When the doctors told me that I can leave the hospital, I was probably the most happiest girl ever. Just think, would you rather be in a hospital bed with tubes and needles in you? Or would you rather be who you are and live your life while your still alive?

I couldn't be the goofy Joen I was when I was dealing with anorexia, I had to be at the hospital and watch what I do and don't eat 24/7. It took a huge toll on my life. I even lost some friends along the way. But, some people stood by me the entire time.

I'm glad I have people who care about me, if I didn't, I would probably have commited suicide right now, no joke. At the beginning of anorexia, I was thinking of killing myself, because I felt worthless, and I felt like the dumbest person alive. But I saw my friends faces when I was in that hospital bed, they would give me hugs, and they would tell me they are praying everyday for me. That made me so happy, I could just jump up and down at that moment; but I knew I couldn't.

Like I have said, I am thankful for still being here. xx