Cheeni Marie

I am an impulsive and spontaneous person who always likes to try new things. I'm funny at times and I just love to laugh. I'm even able to laugh at myself when I made a mistake. Just because I love to laugh that doesn't mean I don't take life seriously. It's just for me I don't like to dwell. I get along pretty well with people. I love making new friends. I'm a hopeless romantic and sometimes I still expect my knight-in-shining-armor will come and rescue me, some fantasy I think I'll never outgrow, but I'm also a realist.

Right now everything seems to be falling into place. I'm finding out reasons behind all those mistakes I have made in the past. Though I don't regret any of them, but I can proudly say I will be not this version of ME if not for those experiences. Yes, I have made a lot of mistakes in the past. But each and every one of those mistakes I have learned, not just in what to avoid but the most important is with each and every mistakes I've made I have uncovered something about myself as well.

I know myself better, and it was a long process for me. Were they it worth it? Going through all those pains, frustration, anger, sorrow, bitterness and betrayal, I can honestly say, yes they are. Though at that time, I wasn't sure. I would be a hypocrite if I said I never felt like giving up, I mean come on I'm only human. There would be times I feel like giving up, but in the end I was able to overcome that particular emotion and maintain some level of sanity.

I became aware that when reality bites you in the ass it doesn't just take a nip at you, but rather it takes a big chunk...and suddenly understanding hit you hard...so hard it leaves you gasping and you have no other choice but to stop for you to be able to catch your breath...but when the ripples are no more...when everything is still....it make you see things clearly...so clear that it leaves no room for doubt...

From there you pick up the pieces...and you make progress...You now have NOT only a better understanding of yourself, but as well as what you must do... and more importantly you have regained YOU!