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Thisis a story of a psychopath. A real life, bona-fide, psychopath. Thisperson consistently demonstrated nearly every symptom of the Hayesdiagnosis chart. The only symptom that was missing was the juveniledelinquency. However I didn't know her then and the level of her liesand manipulation she would never have told the truth if I had everasked about this period. A few years exposure to this person and anuntrained individual can make a clear diagnosis. I made thatdiagnosis. I first thought, as I looked into the subject, she wassocipathic and narccistic . But the strict adherence of her behaviouragainst the tools used to diagnose the condition convinced me shemust be a psychopath. Her behaviour was consistent, relentless andpersistant. My experiences insist on this assessment.

Theyare an out-of-control, slave to their condition. Such a slave thatthey become predictable and easy to read. Bank on betrayal and youwont go wrong. Think double speak. reverse their words, Love meanshate, fidelity means infidelity and trust means betrayal. Apply thatrule to everything they say and you have an insight into the mind andactions of a psychopath. Their words and actions are completelycontradictory.

Iam the survivor of a psychopath. I have scars that run deep as aconsequence. But I am alive to tell the tale. The scars are notphysical. If they were id be dead a long time ago. These scars areemotional. The result of a relentless assault on my humanity. Theperpetrator would already be locked up if the damage was physical. Icant decide if I am lucky or unlucky it wasn't physical. I have tothink I am lucky because id surely be dead if the amount of damageinflicted was physical. However the mental scars are a great burden.

Thisstory is part of my healing process. My opportunity to getunderstanding and clousure as that would never be presented to me bythe psychopath.