Life Sucks, doesn't it?

Even as a daughters of the King Most High, we're still stuck in this world
Me? I'm a single 20 year old. Epileptic, unemployed and out of school. All while attempting to figure out this whole... "adult" thing...

As my favorite Disney character Merlin says "what a medieval mess!!"
Now... I am aware that the obvious answer is... DUH.
Life does get tough. And just plains beats you down.
Take my life for example.

I was born with awesome Rapunzel blonde curls and an awesome sleek figure
But when I was seven, my little sister was diagnosed with leukemia. And siblings are affected just as much by it's horror. My older sister hid in books and shyness. I turned to food and trying to control everything so nothing else bad could happen.
Til middle school....
Ever seen "The Princess Diaries" ? Remember what she looked like before her transformation?
Bushy curls, glasses, chubby and the social skills of a rock.
This was me in middle school. Also add to that lovely ensemble being a 5'9 giant and clutz at 12.
You couldn't pay me enough to return.
High school was a little better.
I was still a giant, chunky, and had huge curly hair. Hence I suffered with severe insecurity.
But I discovered my talent in singing. And dove into music and theatre.
I then jetted off to college to be a music major, started seeing a frat boy, started partying....
I think you can guess where that went...
*cue toilet flushing*
So I returned home with a broken spirit and screwed up life. I had gotten so far from God. And was completely lost and hurt and confused. I had learned real fast that what the world gives is only fun for about 10 minutes...
Over the summer I joined a church college group who helped me heal and recommit my life to Christ.
I then began at community college, still without a clue of where to go with it
And that's when the health problems began
First spacing out, then panic attacks, followed by E.R visits
We discovered I had thyroid issues
So I started taking meds and the skies seemed to be clearing.
Until January.
spacing out, blacking out, unable to drive, severe panic attacks and feeling like I was losing my mind...
Things got awful
And the doctors had NO answer
At one point I was told "Just hang in there kid"
In one sentence I had to drop schoo