Ryan Ruiz

I've had a lot of healing in my life, struggles that once seemed impossible to overcome, were overcame. But..I still always felt like I was too afraid to show people who I really was. So scared to be the person I was, to show my emotions, to tell anyone my real life story. Until I met someone. For a long time, I struggled through every single day. I was broken. Lately, I have been tired of viewing the person I was in a bad way. I am tired of carrying other peoples mistakes on myself. There is nothing that us as humans can do about things in the past. Some things are out of our hands to control, even though we wish we could change things. Loosing friends, loosing family, loosing the things we love the most are what deteriorate our body I've come to realize. It is self-defeating, and we can not truly live. No one can see the person and our life story who we really are because we change for them. Everyone does it, all the time. In order to have something work, we change. I molded myself into something that would look good to others until I could not take it anymore. Until I met someone who truly understood me. I realize the fear we have inside us humans, will only hold us back from freedom. The tears, the pain, the moments we just want to kill ourselves, are simply a waste of time. Ive missed out on things I love..and the things that love me for who I am. It's okay and normal to be afraid, but being the person who we truly are is more than enough. There is no one like me. I don't let someone else define my worth; I know it and believe it myself. I have felt alone, and people never understood me, but deep down I know I am good enough. I was the first breath that filled my lungs, and I'll always be that person.