Recovery

I'm young and I'm already fucking up my life.

My name is unknown, and I will keep it that way. Ask for my kik if you would like to know it and I might give it to you if I don't know you because there has been mishaps in the past about family & friends finding me and I don't want a repeat of that experiance. I'm here to help you with whatever you have going on and I promise I will do whatever it takes to make sure you're okay and that you're going to be okay.

I've been selfharming myself since I was 11 years old and a few years later I still am.

Today my mom found out about it and told me she didn't want me doing that to myself anymore. I'm trying to stop and I'm about a week clean from it and I'm still going strong. I have a boyfriend too, but he doesn't know about it and I want to stop so I don't have to explain it to him one of these days.

I have an eating disorder as to where I can't eat 3 meals. I can't do it without feeling downright disgusting. I don't have a gag reflex...so I can't purge it back up.

I'm eaten alive everyday by my anxiety and thoughts about people not liking me because I'm too fat. I'm just trying to feel a bit confident. My family is worrying about me but I don't know why. I'm fine guys. I'm doing this on my own and I swear I will beat this. I'm not fighting my eating disorder, because I like that I could be thin one of these days. But I'm here trying to help everyone else. I've been where you guys are. I have and I promise I'll help you through it.

I know what it's like to feel worthless, but we can beat this together. <3