Shaharyar Abid

there is nothing i can fear of...except my ALLAH idealize yourself.........don't search for the ideal.......become that much good that u will become an ideal 4 others....... Well, first impression is never the last one, you might be very wrong about me.... I know that I am person who is deeper & introvert than one can imagine. My childish behavior or my stupid questions are merely a smokescreen to what I really am. There is no doubt that I’m very dangerous when it comes to be revengeful & rude and I’m the worst enemy one can ever wish for but that's only one side of the coin. .I can be suffocating at times ..., as I am very possessive & sensitive by nature. I am a very loyal & caring person towards whom I am very close to - friends & family. I am friendly, sensitive, social, and ambitious & a straight forward person I like ambitious n optimums minded people. I am feeling many changes in myself since the past few years. I think as the days are passing, I am learning more from life. Yes, I found that life is not much easy. I love nature and creativity. I love poetry the power of the words it always touches my soul. Moreover, one thing, which I love, is loneliness. Because when I am alone, I try to find myself that who and where I am, I recall all my past memories good and bad days, I start realizing what is life, and the world goes on. Sometimes I feel that I never be able to fulfill my dreams, but then I do not know from where I m able to see a light & hear a voice that always says me that "never lose hope.” Then I promise to myself that I will try my level best to achieve what I want because I m sure my ALLAH is with me and I again promise to myself that I will never let my hopes die. Life is beautiful and it is to live but I think we our self have made it hard for us. Sometimes I wish to fly maybe like a cool wind on a hot day or a twister- to destroy impure and remind to the people that they are not the kings of earth. We have so many friends, but most of them do not know what does friendship means. That is what bullshit is. I always make my own way do not like to follow others because followers do not go ahead. it hurts when people refuse to understand, but in a way, it made me a better person, when I misunderstood for the reason. I thought about the pain that I was causing because of the other people. Why I even did this to them, who did not deserve it, I am not sure why I am always sincere in this insincere world. I gu